I'm 99% sure...

I'm 99.5% sure I have high functioning Asperger's Syndrome.

I'm 99.9% my Dad has it which makes sense since it appear to be passed on genetically from the father.

Here's why it matters....

*It explains a lot. For instance: No matter how hard I try/tried there are a lot of social interactions in which I am completely clueless. The general explanation was things like, "shyness or not a people person." But Aspergers is a brain structure issue that makes it hard to comprehend social cues and mores that most people take for granted.

There are also certain habits or ways of thinking that I knew wasn't common. You cannot imagine my surprise when researching Aspergers for the first time those specific type things were expressly mentioned.

Here's why it doesn't matter...

*It isn't an excuse to retreat away from people because it is uncomfortable.

There are ways to cope and compensate, which I have over the years stumbled onto that should and do get used.

*By referring to it as a brain structure issue it sounds mysterious and special. My opinion is we are learning more concerning the brain and how much uniqueness is possible. What is considered a 'syndrome' really is just one of many options of how brains can develop. Over time 'syndromes' will be easy to spot. The big question is what is normal.

David was right in Ps 139 "We are fearfully and wonderfully made."

*I will never be the extrovert my wife is but I can certainly improve in how to socially interact even if it doesn't translate into feeling natural or easy.