Michelle

On March 12th @ 4;20 am my sister Michelle suddenly passed away.

She had been chronically ill w/ acute diabetes but there had been no out of the ordinary decline or warning signs. The best we can ascertain is she had a heart attack @ home.

She was 44.

Things I am trying to learn/have learned in the last 4 days:

(1)My theology has not changed. Pain has a way of magnifying cracks in our belief systems if they aren't sufficiently rooted.

(2)Do the hardest things so others don't have to. During the whole ordeal I wanted to find ways to shield and run interference for my parents. So, there were difficult phone calls and tough decisions that I tried to make for them when possible.

(3)John 11 is different now.

(4)My toughest moments to date have been: (A)Telling my Dad that Shell had died.
I got half way through that and Lisa had to finish it. (B)Being consoled by Zak. (C)Thinking how good the Gospel is. I Cor 15.

(5)The importance of people. By nature I am somewhat of a loner and introvert. I thought that when tragedy hit I would want to be alone. The opposite was true. This actually surprised me.

Sometime I'll attach a pic to this post for reference.