Like every parent I not only love each of my children individually, but there are qualities I admire about each of my children. Areas in which I wish I was more like them. Zak is very disciplined. Alley is very empathetic. Eli is very...different, and he is OK with that.
To Eli every thing is BIG. It's either BIG good or BIG bad, but there isn't much middle ground.
I wish I had that enthusiasm. Eli is just Eli. For example: The get-up he is wearing in the pic was his church clothes on Wed, dew rag and all. Oh, you can't see the chain wallet clamped around his ankle for reason I don't understand. It never crossed his mind that 7 year old preacher kids don't go to church dressed like that. It did cross my mind. But in the end...that's just Eli.
The question I ask myself is, "Why am I so uncomfortable just being me? Is it nature (that's just me) or nurture (family, experiences, church has bred that into me?)"
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